I don't want to feel pain

I feel like I‘m in the wrong space
I don't want to be in infinite pain
I‘m drowning drowning through the night
I want to get out of here
To end my eternal delusion
I‘m coming coming to you
You'll be old and die someday
I hope l'm not too sad then
think l'm all grown up
and you still make me cry
I may not want to live as much as
my existence is your sacrifice
I'm scared I don't want to feel
pain pain pain
I feel like I‘m in the wrong space
I don't want to be in another pain
I‘m drowning drowning drowning
through the night
I want to get out of here
To end my eternal delusion
Im coming coming coming to you
You'll be old and die someday
I hope l'm not too sad then
think l'm all grown up
and you still make me cry
I may not want to live as much as
my existence is your sacrifice
l'm scared I don't want to feel
pain pain pain
when I get old
I don't want to remember your face
I just want to stay okay for a little while