When I was fourteen
It came easy
It was something I did without trying
Now I’m twenty-three
Fucking look at me
I can’t hold a conversation without lying
In here it’s heavy
People keep talking
Telling me how I must be happy now
I say I’m sorry
Wait there a minute
I think I left myself in the bathroom stall
Can’t you see right through it?
I can’t do it
I fall in love
And my love starts falling
I wish I didn’t get so sick with it all
But I need it, to be needed
And I am running out of reasons to like myself
When I met you
And you saw me
I guess it felt so good to be seen
Now I know you
And you know me
How I feel is rarely what I mean
Can’t you see right through it?
I can’t do it
No, I can’t do it
Yeah, I know what I said
I know I said it from the start,
I never knew it would be this hard