Gruesome

If i lost my way,
Tell me
You can be hurtful just
Don’t kill
Cause it's digging in my chest
Caving from the weight
A ringing in my head
Every other day
Do we have to be gruesome
To feel
Under the surface
Bitter and nervous
Do my best
To make it out alive
Is anything working?
I'm tired of searching
For something
To make me feel alright
Running in circles
Again
Are we taking wrong turns
or dead ends