Haunted

You said, “Stay,” then you vanished for a week
I said, “Fine,” but my hands could barely eat
Kept your hoodie like a habit I can’t kick
Smells like you and every lie you ever told
Argued in the car till the gas light glowed
You cried first, so I’m always “cold”
Blocked me, then called just to see if I’d cave
Guess we both get bored if we feel too safe
I’m only haunted when I miss you
But I miss you all the time
Toxic in my veins, yeah, I sip you
Knowing that you poison my mind
You break me, then you beg me
“Baby, don’t you ever change”
I’m only haunted when I miss you
But I love the way it aches
You said I’m “just like your messed-up ex”
Then kissed my neck, “You still mad?”
How we go from war to your room that fast
Shouting through the door, then we laugh, then we crash
Scrolling through our pics at 4 a.m.
Pausing on the ones where I looked like him
I see the fear you tried to hide in jokes
Maybe I’m a mirror for the hurt you never spoke
I’m only haunted when I miss you
But I miss you all the time
Toxic in my veins, yeah, I sip you
Knowing that you poison my mind
You break me, then you beg me
“Baby, don’t you ever change”
I’m only haunted when I miss you
But I love the way it aches
I’m only haunted when I miss you
But I miss you all the time
I’m only haunted when I miss you
Knowing that you poison my mind