Playing Cool

Playing cool, pretending I'm fine
Smiling while I push you aside
Staring at my phone all night
Truth is, I’m stuck in that time
With my friends, I laugh it off
Like your name don’t come across
But when the lights go out
I see you in my thoughts
Playing cool, acting like
Love was just a passing vibe
Telling them I’m doing great
Like I’m not wide awake
Playing cool, saying “nah”
Like I never missed your call
But inside, I’m holding tight
To someone I said goodbye
Thought I heard your voice today
Ringing soft and far away
Every buzz, I wish it’s you
Like a habit I can't undo
I said I cleared your pics
But one’s still in my clips
Tried to erase your trace
But my heart still saves your face
Playing cool, acting like
Love was just a passing vibe
Telling them I’m doing great
Like I’m not wide awake
Playing cool, saying “nah”
Like I never missed your call
But inside, I’m holding tight
To someone I said goodbye
Truth is, I’m still the same
So much I never said
“I'm okay” was just a lie
Will I get used to this goodbye?
Playing cool, acting like
Love was just a passing vibe
Telling them I’m doing great
Like I’m not wide awake
Playing cool, saying “nah”
Like I never missed your call
But inside, I’m holding tight
To someone I said goodbye