Practicing Goodbye

Each day feels like a maybe...
Folded your shirts like a silent prayer
Learned how to smile with too much air
Counting moments like fragile glass
Pretending I won't break when you finally pass
I pack the words I'll never say
Tuck them deep for some distant day
[Chorus: Slow, Emotional Release]
I'm practicing goodbye in every breath
Tracing your shadow to learn what's left
Pretending I'm strong, pretending I'm right
But how do you rehearse losing your light?
I'm practicing goodbye... but it never feels right
Laugh a little louder to fill the space
Cook your favorite meals just in case
Hang onto your stories, memorize your hands
Trying to hold a future slipping like sand
I frame your voice in every night
Trying to bottle your fading light
I'm practicing goodbye in every breath
Tracing your shadow to learn what's left
Pretending I'm strong, pretending I'm right
But how do you rehearse losing your light?
I'm practicing goodbye... but it never feels right
I'm practicing goodbye but the pages tear
Writing you out when you're still there
Holding tomorrow like a thread worn thin
Grasping at a life I can't begin
Practicing goodbye... but I can't let it in
Still practicing...
still pretending...