Back From Hell

I put all my emotions into songs that’s no one listens to
I deprived and hurt myself
Came back from hell
I felt every feeling
Counted cracks on every ceiling
My flesh still remembers
Every stab from every lover
I know this
I stated this whole thing
But all of the hurting
Made me grow
I went to places
Where all my faces
Have faded to traces
I let it go
Now I’m free
I am me
I put all my devotion into avoiding reality
There’s hole inside of me
I leave my body frequently
I put all my devotion into filling the void inside of me
I pretend I’m always well
Never knew how to ask for help
I tried every healing
Self-médication and forgiving
I have a degree in forgiving / I master forgiving
Yet my insides still recall
Every hour by the phone
I have Nothing more to say
Nowhere left to hide
No karmic dept to pay
No tear left to cry