I used to Wanna be somebody else
blinded by misguided illusions of sex, fame and wealth
Fam worried about my health cuz my heart murmur trippin'
stressin', like dreams won't make a living
i'm giving everything that I had just to have my heart broken
needing some relief, thinking should I start smoking
But what will that solve, except choking and light breathing
biting on my own tongue, it's like teething
Man, it gotta be a reason i'm going through it
I done seen people change, said they wouldn't do it
I was stupid, thinking life would be the same
but God'll take you through the storm just to see the rain
Open the windows of your mind just to feel the pain
starting on a clean slate but i'm still stained Dang
So i'm holding on these grey balloons
tryna see where it takes me, i'll see you soon but
Don't worry baby
You ain't gotta worry bout me at all
Be on, your way
I'll be back one day, ay
Don't worry baby
You ain't gotta worry bout me at all
Be on, your way
I'll be back one day, ay
I wish that I could remember the day I lost it
any sense of cares I had, was exhausted
Burnt through the tail pipes, driven to insanity
everything I went through, brought out the man in me
And God's demanding me, to spread that word
you got fans, suck it up, cuz if they hurt, you hurt
I'm supposed to paint the sky to defeat that night
be Lennox Lewis with the pen, yo I beat that mic
you read that right It's our earth, our turf
rhymes, juicy as biggie, I fikki, and make the stars burst
Just like a lost purse, I found my identity
happened for the first time like, loosing virginity
Eventually, i'll be the man i'm destined to be
you call it pain I figured it's a blessing to me
so i'm leaving Where's my balloons There they go
i'm gone for now and, i'll see you soon so
You gotta have heartbreak to be great
they feel me from here to Philly, get a cheese steak
goodness for Pete's sake, i'm going where the wind wanna take me
it's crazy now these chicks wanna date me, word really
Cuz when your status start changing
friends turn foes, attitudes rearranging
it's strange when, your close friends disappear
now all you got is yourself, music and tears
But the pain feels distant from here
balloons fly me to the moon, Granny i'll see you soon
You was my heart and soul but now you gone
the world didn't know you, but they will through my songs
These kids sell they souls, lord I pray you forgive em'
everybody makes mistakes, but not everyone forget em' get em
YOU, better grab a balloon
and fly away with me, tell your fam you'll see em' soon and