I wish it were history this trickery
It’s common decency all it is to me
is an unsolved mystery
that always ends in how
could you do this to me
you kissed me like you meant it
so demented in your ultimate plan
in every movie that we rented
licked it n sent it took
my heart n kept it
i said it n read it a broken heart
I wouldn’t let it
but here I am again and venting
to my friends n spending time
on these splendid rhymes
for these hectic times
i hate you
i guess i judged you for your
cover n there goes another one
I’m just a girl you got recovering
old summers n smothering
love numbers
when I thought you
weren’t like the others
You shouldn’t be allowed to hold
a heart not a whole not a part
You knew the roll from the start
played the part like and addict
and you were so good at it
looking at it i admit
that I’m fragile
but i swear you planned it and
understand it and
passed it off as candid
You took something
innocent branded it
an accidental incident
you couldn’t stop
until you landed it
I swear I had my wall so high
And I think you knew it
Why
Why did you do it
It’s so stupid that we cry
For these stupid guys that act shy
With good style n pretty smiles
I was fine
You didn’t have to try
To get inside and steal
my little and only pride
I hide
I was okay with lonely nights
And not knowing fights
You could have left me
a lone that night
I mean you didn’t know me right
But I guess you have your needs
of planting more than seeds
Eating feelings like rats n cheese
n spitting em out like a bag of seeds
The greed is a sickness
in its ridiculous living in this and
Witnessing the indigenous dicks
in the world were just girls
I’m just a girl
Feeling fat n ugly in the study
of getting somebody
to touch me but love me
Maybe treat me like a lady
and take me to the city feeling giddy
at the fact that he told me
that I’m pretty
We don’t recognize his lies
and because of a life time
of try’s we use pussy as a prize
They start out as good guys
and eat your heart with good byes
And good bye is what it better be
In pretty little lettering
There’s not a single care in me
When I see kids start
in elementary it’s tearing me
Where is all the parenting
its scaring me
I’d rather be not be loved
than to loved temporarily
So I’ll let this be a lesson
of leveling with legends
as I cry with every sentence
in remembrance
This is for the ones that hurt me
in stirred me and tried
to love me in a hurry
This is for the ones that tried
to play me like a baby thinking
money n words would break me
This is for the ones that wooed me
to try and do me and all
they did was lose me
Here’s to a new me
an everlasting happy
cheers to keeping it
classy can’t be standing laughing
at the ones that thought
they almost had me I’ll be sassy
cause I can be if you want me
you can have me
with a little understanding
ill only be demanding of respect
n intellect a guy who
lets me get the check
and accept that
I don’t need him I need me
and I’ll leave him if need be
I guess we learn through trial and
Burn through piles of words
n styles and what if heard for a while
Is that everyone
deserves to learn n smile
So with that being said and
with chivalry dead we build
n shed tears instead
with fears in our head
So live life for loving
cause no big deal is money
Laugh at what’s funny and
Stare at the stunning
Cause were wasting these days
that don’t see as precious
And if everyone knows
that negativity’s infectious
We might actually
do something right
with the world that God left us