so it's been a bad day. evrything seems grey. my upstairs is out of place. i need to be by myself, rely on no one else. only i can erase the slate. all of the walls i've built to protect me seem to fall down all around and i see things so differenetly, down is the taste of the day but things will change. i can be strong....keep my head up. time, all i need is some time by myself. i need to go where there is no one to come and try to find me. my feelings must open up and vent, breathe. i can be strong...beat frustration...keep my head up...accept my feelings now. so there will be better days. saced getaways are the means of my escape. then i will collect my thoughts or lose them if i chose. i control this game.